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The Darkling Tag… 

Sorry for the lack of posts. I was very busy and it’s not the end !

 However, I think it could be funny to answer to the famous darkling tag, a list of questions for dark inclined people like an elder goth as me. 

So let’s begin

Simple Questions:

What is your favorite candle scent? None, i was so afraid by afire in my house that i don’t buy any cabdles ! 

Do you have a favorite book? I think i can consider the Lord Of The Rings as my favorite book even if i have a list long like an arm of fav books. 

Are you a tea or coffee person? No tea, no coffee because arythmias due to my heart defect and heart failure 

What is your favorite brand and color of lipstick? Nyx cosmetics and Kat Von D 

What is your favorite perfume/cologne? Avignon from Comme Des Garçons. The perfume of church insense. 


Do you have a celebrity crush? Yes, since my very young age and till now Harrison Ford. Probably my longest crush. But i have a lot of other crushes : Mads Mikkelsen, Misha Collins, Kurt Cobain, Helmut Berger, Yule Bryner, Gary Oldman……..

 

If you had to give up the color black, what color would you choose instead? Purple 

If you could change your name to a stereotypical 90s/2000s gothy name, what would it be? There were stereotypical gothy names ? I missed something when i was a baby bat 😂 

What are your top three tips for surviving hot weather while black clad? Light weight fabrics, many laces, don’t go out ! 

What song will always make you happy (doesn’t have to be a goth band)?  I need songs which inspire me, not make me happy. And a have a very long list of this kind of songs. 

Are you active in the arts (ex. Play an instrument, paint, write, etc)? 😂😂 holy shit yes, i’m a painter, it’s my “job” and before i was illustrator for rock music industry ( now almost retired)

If you had a teacup or mug made inscribed just for you, what would you have it say? I really don’t know, but i want one dalek shaped ! 


What is your number one non-gothy hobby? What is a gothy hobby except walking in cemeteries ?  

Thought Provokers:

If you could be a supernatural creature, what would it be and why? A vampire, because they could have a very long life, they are smarts and they are living dead so technically they never feel a heart beat, never. 

What horror monster-based super power would you have? Vampires powers
Do you feel confident or comfortable interacting with other Goths or gothy people (online or irl)? Why or why not? It depend of the people like ungoth people too. Sometimes you can interact very easily with someone and with other it could be more difficult. Goth, ungoth it’s the same. 

Which is more important for a look: Great hair or great makeup? Both, i try both. I’m not very skilled, i do my best. 

Is there something you wish there was more of in your subculture? More people ah ah ah… i feel alone. 

Care to share an embarrassing story related to your “darkliness“?  I’m not embarrassed with and never been. People around can but for me it’s just…natural. 

How are you at DIY? Not very skilled ! And i have not a lot of time to waste for learning. 

Quickly describe your ideal wedding ? No wedding, i hate wedding. So much people, money, embarrassment for just ONE day…. if i marry my man it will be just us, and a very tiny tiny bunch of people, 4/6 not more. The simplest possible. Love don’t need big things. Love is the big thing. 

My feelings about Elitism and labels in Goth Subculture

Since a while there are plenty of blogs, tweets, fb status, videos about elitism and / or labels in our subculture. I thinked about blogging about for a long time. Is it accurate to add my opinion to the long, long list of opinions already done. 

Finally i can’t resist to the call because i’ve red some wrong things, and i want answer to those points. 

 Many  baby bats are complaining about elitism. The fact it’s often they see in goth subculture only something superficial, fashionable, glamourous fueled by some brands and archetypes. Goth is just wearing black and wear spooky ( but sexy if possible ) things. The reality is a bit different. Yes, many goths love wearing clothes, nice jewelry and make up. It’s in our blood since the begining. But there are goth who really don’t care and they are more goth than many of baby bat i see on social medias. Why ? Because they know the roots of our subculture. It’s not something elitist to say that’s important to know where we come from. Look i’m artist, and during my studies i learned something important, and you can apply it to all domains even goth: you can’t erase the past, the roots, the history because those things make what you are and will be. Knowledge is the key in all domains for going forward. 

For our subculture, it’s important to be linked with music, because our subculture is really music rooted. We are born of music first, late 70s, kids of punk and from the music we build our whole culture adding literature, movies and art. And fashion of course but it’s an epiphenomenom. 

My feelings is, if you want to be really a part of goth subculture, work on and learn. You know as an elder goth i remember when i was a baby bat during the 90s. I see, being a goth bartender helped me, many people in goth parties. Often the more into goth fashion police and bad thongues with others are those who weren’t the less in the subculture. We are not a lot, now, truly goth ( i don’t talk about fashion of course but state of mind ), with social medias i follow time to time some people i met during the 90s and frankly, often i was surprised by what they like, share or talk about. Are they really the 90s uber goth i met ? Yes, often it was just a phase, that’s true. 


Now let’s talk about labels in our subculture. I must admit i’m really fed up by labels because i think if we have the same roots why we need labels ? I hate put people in boxes and i think we’re all the result of mixing influences which emerged with goth subculture. We are just focusing on some different influences according to our personality, education and personnal tates including ungoth ones. 

I don’t care if you are victorian, mopey, pastel or wathever you want. The important thing is if we can discuss gently, not targeting others, just have fun with links builded by being in a same subculture. 

I have this feeling labels become so important. When i was young there were only two labels ” cool people ” and ” douchebags” . There was really enough. 

Music Wednesday #2: riot goth girls 

Sorry for my lack of posts this week, i.ve worked on the paintings for my next groupshow in Belgium this week end. I worked also on commissions. However, i’m back for the music wednesday. 

This will be a only girls playlist, solo or bands. 

1) first is of course the queen of goth Siouxie Sioux. She was and she is a model for so much baby bats around the world. 

2) Diamanda Galas is very impressive. Her way to sing is really amazing, it’s like listening a witch talking with other dimensions. It could be hard to appreciate a first attempt. 

3) Lydia Lunch is a multi tasks artist. She’s writer, poet, singer. I consider her as post punk. She also a true feminist activist. Her texts can be crude and rude. 

4) lene Lovich is one of my favorite. I love her voice and she has a fashion sense which is really my taste mixing folk, punk, goth clothes. She did some featurings with Nina Hagen, but also with Dresden Dolls for example. 

5) if i mention Lene Lovich, i must of course mention Nina Hagen. She impressed me a lot when i was a kid. I remebered forever the first time i saw her in a tv show mid 80s. I just thinked ” wow i want to be her later” 

6) Anna-Varney Cantodea ( Sopor aeternus) is a mystery. Her songs are beautiful and her esthetic too. She is one of the pillar of goth culture. 

7) Dinah Cancer is one of the death rock queen. She was, with her band 45 grave a pioneer. 

8) Gitane DeMone was formerly in Christian Death before being on her solo projects. I love her voice and even without Christian Death her music is good. 

9)Patricia Morrisson was in several bands but especially in Sisters of Mercy and The Damned. She was the bassist before work on solo projects. 

10) Eva O is another ex Christian Death member and was married to Rozz Williams. She has the surname of queen of darkness. 

I will try to update my blog a little bit more often. Feel free to discover more those female singers who made the goth culture. 

My first syntetic dreads attempt 

Hi Shadows, 

Friday i attempted for the first time the installation of dreads. I wanted to try since long, but my hair skills are really shitty. My sister was hairdresser but she is still busy and i don’t want take her time for myself. I’ve watched a lot of tutorials on youtube. I keep those which seemed the more clear for me and rewatched them. I ordered ready made dreads because i’m too busy for handmade them myself. But clearly it’s an option. 

 

Here i was at half of my head. Luckily i.m under cutted and just have hair on the top. I think it was more easy than a full head. 


Full hair done. First sensations are strange. Your head is heaviest. But i feel also more feminine. 

I need to work after my attempt, so i quickly try a bun 


Just with a stick in. It’s giving volume very easily and this is perfect. I don’t need to backcomb hair which really kill them. 

Yesterday we.ve gone to thrift. I’ve tried a side braid, i think it will be my favourite hair style. 


It was very easy to sleep on. But my partly shaved hair probably helped me. First impressions are so good that i’ve ordered beautiful handmade dreads i’ve seen, in a purple mix for the next time. 

Little FAQ: 

Who’s tutorial you used ? 

First those, really well done, of  Kerosene , i also used some of  Tez Mania and the one Goblin Queen just released before my installation. 

How many dreads you used ? 

Less then a complete head i think. I’ve used 8 double dreads ( tardis blue ) and 22 simple dreads. ( purple and black ) 

How was the pose ? 

The pose took me 2 hours and a half. I think next time i will go quickly. You need too section well your hair for a regular pose. I’ve done my installation on a little wet hair, it’s more easy to catch. I used two types of dreads: simple and double. My feeling is double are better, more easy to braid and softer on your hair. Next time i will install mostly double ones. 

I will also mix thicker ones for more volume. I will show you of course. You need to reinstall your dreads each 4/7 weeks. I think i will do it after 4 weeks. 
The next step will be the first shampoo. When you have dread one or two per week are sufficient. You need too wash very carefully the roots. 

Hope this help you if you want to try synthetic dreads. Mine came from Dreadshop, but you can find awesome handmade ones on etsy or ebay. It’s reusable. I’ve ordered my next dreads from Little market for example ( a kind of french version of Etsy ) 
 

Sorry but black can’t be your favorite colour 

As a painter/ printmaker / illustrator I pay much attention to colors. Actually I use many colors in my illustration works and pretty less in personal work. However I sorry to tell you that you can’t say black is your favorite color. What? Wait ? I’m gothic ! I adoooore black color !!! Is she crazy ?No I’m not… Most of the time. It’s SCIENCE ! Black is a non color, black is just an absence of color. 

Take  Black holes, one of the great mystery of space ( and time? Sorry I’m whovian ). It’s a supermassive celestial object …totally black. 


Black holes reflect no light nor they emit it. Black doesn’t physically exist because you can see it. Yes, you and me are black blind. 

So why see you black ? How you can choose this beautiful velvet black dress if it’s made in a non color ? You see it for several reasons: 

– first you see black by contrast with other colors around. It’s like a shadow, and all here know that goth love shadows, you agree I guess. Without other colors you can’t see black, you just will see nothing. Distinguish nothing, something like nothing …. Remember the Neverending Story ( i’m an elder goth, i have old references ) If you didn’t see it or read it, do, just for the black / nothing 


– in second hand, actually true black didn’t exist. I know it’s fucking choking. The black you see is still a deep color absorbing more or less light. It’s for that reason that some blacks don’t match when you wear its. Some are greenish or slightly blue, reddish or so… 

Recently Anish Kapoor, a contemporary artist bought all rights on VantaBlack which is the darkest material ever made, absorbing 99,96% of light. 


In conclusion you like colors, but very deep, yeaah ! 

My favorite colors is purple. Since my young age, purple fascinating me. And you, after reading this blog, which is your favorite color ? 

Tattoo appointment report

Hi little ghosts, 

last week i had a tattoo appointment with my favorite tattoo artist, Leanka from Lucky Electric. She did an amazing work. Most of my tattos are from her hand. I trust her completely. I think the relationship between you and your tattoo artist is VERY important. Even for one little tat’ 

i will do a more complete post about tattoos, being tattooed and how to do or not do when you want a tattoo. 

My new tattoo was for my leg, a large snake , from foot to thigh between my other tats. When it’s a place like legs or arm you need to think how you dress for being confortable during the work and after especially if have something else to do before being back home. 

I choose one of my comfy dress from Holyclothing. I wore over knee socks, no battle with shitty thights and one of my comfy pikes

Ready for my rendezvous ! I’m still a little bit nervous before a tattoo because you never know which pain you will have. Especially with a big one which begins on foot and continue alongside your leg. 


i took a photo during the appointment but i deleted it last evening while i cleaned my photo feed. Well it’s not very important actually. 

Here is the snake. I think it took 3 or 4 hours. Don’t remember because we still talk and laugh a lot. Time flew fast. My tattoos are not “goth” , i like old school coloured tattoos and some tattoo artists close to lowbrow or outsider art style. I must confess that i’m not into usual goth art with  etheral girls/ bats / wolves/ roses/ cemeteries kitsch combo. I will talk about that in another post too ! 


the photo was taken the evening after my appointment. I will shoot it better when it’s healed. Next step will probably be the snake on my left leg, same size, same place but not same snake: i want the sand snake from Beetlejuice. He is a little bit more simple with his stripes, with less colors. The third and last steps will be finishing colors and correct lines on both. 

Have you tattoos ? Do you want tattoos ? 

Cheers ! 

Vampires movies goth should watch : Part 2 

Hi shadows, 

Last week i’ve posted a list of vampires movies, i think goth should watch. of course it’s not a condition for being goth to my eyes, it’s just a title which sounds nice to my ears. However, here the second part of the list and even non goth could watch its 😉 Hope you perhaps discover movies you don’t know in the list. 

1) Interview with the Vampire, Neil Jordan, 1994 


I remember very well when i go to cinema to watch it with friends. I was a baby bat and my friends was involved in roleplaying La Camarilla about vampires. We were very excited and all of us knew the Anne Rice’s book series. It’s one of the few movies in which i can stand Tom Cruise. He is a very good Lestat. Brad pitt is less good as Louis but honorable. If you like historic  costumes movies, sexy vampire relationship and Anne Rice’s book, it’s for you. 

2) Morse, Thomas Alfredson, 2008 


Morse is a vampire movie based on kids but not for kids like The Little Vampire. This swedish movie based on a book depict the special relationship between two kids. It’s a beautiful movie which explore through vampire topic, kid’s torments and how some build a deep connection. 

There was a remake in 2010, but i don’t watch it till now. 

3) Twixt, FF Coppola, 2012 


twist is a part of those very personnal movies Coppola realised. It’s a mix of several inspirztions and topics. It’s also a tribute to edgar Allan Poe universe. For me it’s a real gothic movie and Elle Fanning is brilliant. I just czn tell you : WATCH IT ! 

4) Thirst, Park Chan Wook, 2009 


For once a corean movie. The story is a strange mix between a french realist book, Therese Raquin, and a classic vampire movie. The principal character is a priest, and just for that i wanted watch it, long story, who is infected by a vaccine test. The aesthetic is interesting and the film is more a thriller than a horror movie. 

5) Vampyr, Carl Theodor Dreyer, 1932 


this movie is a beautiful expressionist one. For once it was not after Dracula but after Sheridan Le Fanu Carmilla book. I must admit that i love 20s / 30s movies aesthetic so i enjoyed almost all movies from this era !

6) The Last Man on Earth, Ubaldo Ragona, 1964  


this adapatation of one of my favorite book I Am Legend written by Richard Mattheson is not perfect but much better that the one with Will Smith few years ago. And if your not conviced, watch it for Vincent Price, still perfect. His character live alone and must face night attacks. 

7) Dracula, Tod Browning, 1931 


I don’t know one goth who don’t know who is Bela Lugosi, the best known Dracula actor of the past century. I must confess if i like the movie it’s not my favorite even it’s a classical one. From Browning i prefer so much Freaks. However, you need to watch it, just for your culture and because it has installed long time vampire stereotypical picture. 

8)Vampire’s kiss, Robert Bierman, 1989


I like this movie, which is more a comedy, because it uses a different point of view on what could be to become a Vampire. It was one of the first movies which explore vampire psychology. Nicolas Cage did a great job. 

9) Only Lovers Left Alive, Jim Jarmush, 2013


this film take another point of view on vampires : the disillusioned ones. The movie is mot the best ever on vampires but it’s worth for the actors, Swinton and Hiddleston, and for the still classy Jarmush’s photography.  And Hiddleston, oh i guess i say that before ;)) 

10) The Fearless Vampire Killers, Roman Polanski, 1967 


Another classics but in comedy. This movie is a reinterpretation of Van Helsing, the vampire hunter of Dracula, story.  It’s funny and light. Perfect for halloween with friends for example. 

Next week i will publish the last chapter of my list. Feel free to add in comments movies you like and which are not here nor im the part one. 

WINKLEPICKERS addiction 

Winklepickers are the iconic shoes of goth culture. By the way, those shoes was worn first during the 50s by both sex and rock’n’roll lovers. They are inspired by medieval french boots called poulaines. You can find a lot of winklepickers style even with heels. You can call also call them Spikes. 

When i was a baby bat during the 90s we called them “witches” and my dream was to have a pairs but i hadn’t the money to afford its. I was very frustrated. Now i catches my frustration.  

I have seven pairs ! I wore pikes everyday out of my artist studio. When winter come i add furry thermal sole inside in the way to protect my feet. 

5 pairs come from The Gothic Shoes Compagny in UK

2 pairs come from Goth Pikes in Germany 

Both shops craft very good products. Both are small compagnies, and as an artist i prefer support small brands like people can support my small business. Let me present you my collection: 


This pairs come from GOTHIC SHOES UK. It was my first one. They have straps with nice bat buckles. They are very strong and i wore it for long walk in cities by bad weather for exemple. It’s my “work” boots. There is painting on one. They are so comfy ! 


The second pair i bought are this one, very simple, laced through d-rings. They are very comfy too. I wore it a lot, you can easily quickly put its on your feet. With my pagan dresses it’s just awesome. They came from the Gothic Shoes UK. 


Those are a birthday gift. They are perfect for warm weather and the ankle buckles are beautiful. I wore it also for exhibition opening or classy events i must go. From Gothic Shoes UK


I just fall in love for those boots from Gothic Shoes UK. I love the delicate details of the leather work. They give my feet a goth folk look. They are almost knee high. 


i found those ones on ebay for very few bucks. They are from Goth Shoes UK too. Simple style with zip. The material is soft. And keep all cat hair around ah ah ah. 


The first pair i bought from GOTH Pikes Germany. I love the multiple straps and their high. I wore them for gigs, festival or parties. 


My last pair, from Goth Pikes. It’s their new style and i’m weak, i bought them. Very easy to wear for all occasion, with dress, with leggings, with mini skirt…. If you search a pair you can wear even at work i think those one could be the right choice. 

If you want affordable pikes some big brands like ASOS, Zara released pikes inspired shoes and boots. You can also be patient and find a good occasion on ebay for example. 

credit: Spontis

When the rainbow meets the darkness: LGBTQ and Goth relationship 

I’m involved in LGBTQ rights activism since mid 90s, in the same time i became involved in goth subculture too. 
First I became an activist after met some wonderful friends in University. We were very close. The second thing is that many people think i’m trans. I’m not, i’m a cis girl. The fact that people think i’m trans is not a problem for me but i discovered the violence against trans people. And this violence is often through words but could easily become a physical violence. 
As a cis girl I know really this bad side but my transgender friends are facing so much more:  administration, doctors and too much often alone, without family support. 
Family support is hard to have too when you’re queer, gay or lesbian too. It’s a shame, for me, that your own family let you alone because you are not what they want. A kid, a brother, a sister, a father, a mother are not just object you fulfill with your wishes, the more important is their wishes and how they need to live for being happy. 


However, back to the relationship between LGBTQ community and Goth community. after my own experience goth seems more inclusive. Perhaps our interests, our culture and our proper experience of being different help us to understand more minorities. 
I had friends who found with Goth places where they can be theyself. One can live free her desire to be male to female. She was just at the beginning of her transition and at goth parties she can wore dresses she love. I remember she came as a normal boy and change her clothes, make up and attire in the bathroom of the place we’ve done parties. With time she became more confident with the support of the community and finally came to parties as the girl she is. That’s an awesome example of support in our community. 

Caligo Bastet, Openly gay goth youtuber, link in the bottom of the post.

Same for gay ou lesbian couples. Some were build through parties of course but you have also secret couples. You know when you come for the first time i’m a place, you don’t know how will be the reactions. Often, slowly couples became more and more free because we were supportive and don’t care who you love or who you are deeply. 
But, there’s always a but, in goth scene you also have douchebags. Especially into industrial music ( yes i know, indus is not goth, but frankly seriously related to ). I’m agree, with industrial you have a part of far right ideas which stink a lot. I’ve heard, but it’s not fact checked, that some bands like Combichrist or VNV nation has some homophobic shit behind them. 
If you read this, especially baby bats, and you’re straight stay supportive and inclusive. You know too what is judgmental attitude, so be kind, don’t mess with people nature when this one will never hurt you. If you have, perhaps because of your education or whatever, some reluctance, try too push your limits. If not, you will perhaps loose a good friendship. Just open your mind. Rainbow could meet the darkness in a beautiful way ! 

Some links to go far: 

Caligo Bastet channel ( But youtube is now restricting LGBTQ  content !!!!!! So please if you have time to leave them a message on twitter, on their platform or any other social medias, please, do it ! It’s not the time to shut LGBTQ community up! Support LGBTQ youtubers  ) 

Young Queers Find comfort in the darkness 

Queer and Goth

LGBT GOTHS: What your scene ?

 

 

OUTFIT OF THE DAY: sunday between work and cinema ( and slice of controversy ) 

My sunday was divided between work and going to cinema for watching Logan. I’m not usually into comics but i follow the X-Men licensed movies since the beginning. Of course like a lot of people, my favorite character is Logan / Wolverine ( but also Nightcrawler and Magneto ) 

I loved the movie and i think it becomes my favorite of all the licence. The character of Logan is really well written, with deep and sensibility. I also discovered Dafne Keen who is really amazing in her role of young savage mutant. She reminds me a character from another universe i love Orphan Black, the character of Helena even she is older. 

However let’s talk rag. 


It’s a comfy sunday, first because i’m waiting total healing of a big snake tattooed ( i will talk about my tattoos soon in few different posts ) on my right leg on friday and in second hand because i need to work in my art studio before go to cinema. 

T-shirt : She Past Away merchandise 

Velvet jacket: Thrifted 

Skinny grey jeans: thrifted 

Winklepickers : Goth Pikes 


Sopor Aeternus brooch by My Queendom For….

Chain mail necklace from ebay altered by me with religious medals 

Choker probably from ebay, i don’t remember 

Ankh earrings : Killstar 

Earring cuff: Shop Dixi 


goth finger

It’s late, my humor is fucking bad at this hour. 

CONTROVERSY parenthesis : This week i will post the second part of ” Vampire movies Goth should watch “. I had a weird discussion about my first part on a elder goth FB group. Someone said to me she don’t want read because i used “should” in the title. Well, okay it’s your opinion and i don’t care i said. But she came back, explain to me that she think goth is an non judgemental subculture ( by the way not sure ) and she’s worry when people give things you should do…. 

If i use this title it’s not for giving an order or a manual about being a good goth. First because the list is not only for goth, but for those who like vampires movies, second because it’s just a fucking title which sounds nice to my ears, and not for the first degree, third, it’s just suggestions if you are searching a movie to watch during a lazy day or because you’ve binge drinked netflix and have no idea to watch now. 

I do this blog for pleasure, for not only talk about my job because i’m like my own community manager and sometimes i need to talk about other stuff i like. It’s for fun, sometimes i will post more serious things of course, but it will never be a manual for being goth. You can read it even if you are not in the subculture but you have common interest, or whatever you are, i don’t care. I just hope you.ll find sometimes interesting infos or you just have a good time like me when i read other blogs i appreciate. And not especially goth too. 

So please can we just forget for once controversies, i think there are plenty of more important topics on which you can have controversies than … a list about vampire movies !!!! 

What do you think ?