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Première Wave Gotik Treffen / part. 1 

Aprés plus de 20 ans à espérer poser mes pikes à Leipzig pour la cultissime WGT j’ai enfin réalisé mon rêve cette année. 

Tout était en place pour qu’enfin je ne rate pas ce rendez vous: tunes, mec qui conduit et surtout que ça ne tombe pas sur un week end ou je bosse ( même si on considère souvent que je n’en ai pas un ). Jusqu’au dernier moment j’ai croisé les doigts pour qu’aucune merde ne me tombe dessus. 


Et enfin on est partis. C’était le 30 mai dernier. Avec notre caravane. Par contre un peu à l’arrache sans rien réserver. Ce n’est pas forcément à faire mais bon, trop planifier ça ne nous réussit pas ! 

Bref, on a trouver une place au bord d’un trés joli lac. Que demander de plus. 


Le lendemain nous avons découvert la ville, étonnement préservée par rapport à Stuttgart ou Francfort par exemple. Je n’ai pas pris  de photos, j’ai surtout profité du lieu et de la découverte. La ville est un peu un petit Berlin, y compris niveau squatts d’artistes. Il faut dire qu’il y a beaucoup de bâtiments libres, de friches industrielles. Ça m’a rappelé ma jeunesse quand j’allais souvent dans le Port Du Rhin côté allemand pour des soirées et faire de la sérigraphie. 


On a aussi récupéré le bracelet qui allait nous ouvrir les portes du festival. L’excitation était monté d’un cran.  Ça faisait des lustres que je n’avais pas vu autant de corbacs en un seul endroit.C’était fascinant et réconfortant. D’habitude je suis plutôt isolée. C’est vraiment rare de croiser des goths, même dans les grandes villes. Là c’etait magique et pendant trois jours ça allait l’être. 

Suite demain ! 

My feelings about Elitism and labels in Goth Subculture

Since a while there are plenty of blogs, tweets, fb status, videos about elitism and / or labels in our subculture. I thinked about blogging about for a long time. Is it accurate to add my opinion to the long, long list of opinions already done. 

Finally i can’t resist to the call because i’ve red some wrong things, and i want answer to those points. 

 Many  baby bats are complaining about elitism. The fact it’s often they see in goth subculture only something superficial, fashionable, glamourous fueled by some brands and archetypes. Goth is just wearing black and wear spooky ( but sexy if possible ) things. The reality is a bit different. Yes, many goths love wearing clothes, nice jewelry and make up. It’s in our blood since the begining. But there are goth who really don’t care and they are more goth than many of baby bat i see on social medias. Why ? Because they know the roots of our subculture. It’s not something elitist to say that’s important to know where we come from. Look i’m artist, and during my studies i learned something important, and you can apply it to all domains even goth: you can’t erase the past, the roots, the history because those things make what you are and will be. Knowledge is the key in all domains for going forward. 

For our subculture, it’s important to be linked with music, because our subculture is really music rooted. We are born of music first, late 70s, kids of punk and from the music we build our whole culture adding literature, movies and art. And fashion of course but it’s an epiphenomenom. 

My feelings is, if you want to be really a part of goth subculture, work on and learn. You know as an elder goth i remember when i was a baby bat during the 90s. I see, being a goth bartender helped me, many people in goth parties. Often the more into goth fashion police and bad thongues with others are those who weren’t the less in the subculture. We are not a lot, now, truly goth ( i don’t talk about fashion of course but state of mind ), with social medias i follow time to time some people i met during the 90s and frankly, often i was surprised by what they like, share or talk about. Are they really the 90s uber goth i met ? Yes, often it was just a phase, that’s true. 


Now let’s talk about labels in our subculture. I must admit i’m really fed up by labels because i think if we have the same roots why we need labels ? I hate put people in boxes and i think we’re all the result of mixing influences which emerged with goth subculture. We are just focusing on some different influences according to our personality, education and personnal tates including ungoth ones. 

I don’t care if you are victorian, mopey, pastel or wathever you want. The important thing is if we can discuss gently, not targeting others, just have fun with links builded by being in a same subculture. 

I have this feeling labels become so important. When i was young there were only two labels ” cool people ” and ” douchebags” . There was really enough. 

My first syntetic dreads attempt 

Hi Shadows, 

Friday i attempted for the first time the installation of dreads. I wanted to try since long, but my hair skills are really shitty. My sister was hairdresser but she is still busy and i don’t want take her time for myself. I’ve watched a lot of tutorials on youtube. I keep those which seemed the more clear for me and rewatched them. I ordered ready made dreads because i’m too busy for handmade them myself. But clearly it’s an option. 

 

Here i was at half of my head. Luckily i.m under cutted and just have hair on the top. I think it was more easy than a full head. 


Full hair done. First sensations are strange. Your head is heaviest. But i feel also more feminine. 

I need to work after my attempt, so i quickly try a bun 


Just with a stick in. It’s giving volume very easily and this is perfect. I don’t need to backcomb hair which really kill them. 

Yesterday we.ve gone to thrift. I’ve tried a side braid, i think it will be my favourite hair style. 


It was very easy to sleep on. But my partly shaved hair probably helped me. First impressions are so good that i’ve ordered beautiful handmade dreads i’ve seen, in a purple mix for the next time. 

Little FAQ: 

Who’s tutorial you used ? 

First those, really well done, of  Kerosene , i also used some of  Tez Mania and the one Goblin Queen just released before my installation. 

How many dreads you used ? 

Less then a complete head i think. I’ve used 8 double dreads ( tardis blue ) and 22 simple dreads. ( purple and black ) 

How was the pose ? 

The pose took me 2 hours and a half. I think next time i will go quickly. You need too section well your hair for a regular pose. I’ve done my installation on a little wet hair, it’s more easy to catch. I used two types of dreads: simple and double. My feeling is double are better, more easy to braid and softer on your hair. Next time i will install mostly double ones. 

I will also mix thicker ones for more volume. I will show you of course. You need to reinstall your dreads each 4/7 weeks. I think i will do it after 4 weeks. 
The next step will be the first shampoo. When you have dread one or two per week are sufficient. You need too wash very carefully the roots. 

Hope this help you if you want to try synthetic dreads. Mine came from Dreadshop, but you can find awesome handmade ones on etsy or ebay. It’s reusable. I’ve ordered my next dreads from Little market for example ( a kind of french version of Etsy ) 
 

Sorry but black can’t be your favorite colour 

As a painter/ printmaker / illustrator I pay much attention to colors. Actually I use many colors in my illustration works and pretty less in personal work. However I sorry to tell you that you can’t say black is your favorite color. What? Wait ? I’m gothic ! I adoooore black color !!! Is she crazy ?No I’m not… Most of the time. It’s SCIENCE ! Black is a non color, black is just an absence of color. 

Take  Black holes, one of the great mystery of space ( and time? Sorry I’m whovian ). It’s a supermassive celestial object …totally black. 


Black holes reflect no light nor they emit it. Black doesn’t physically exist because you can see it. Yes, you and me are black blind. 

So why see you black ? How you can choose this beautiful velvet black dress if it’s made in a non color ? You see it for several reasons: 

– first you see black by contrast with other colors around. It’s like a shadow, and all here know that goth love shadows, you agree I guess. Without other colors you can’t see black, you just will see nothing. Distinguish nothing, something like nothing …. Remember the Neverending Story ( i’m an elder goth, i have old references ) If you didn’t see it or read it, do, just for the black / nothing 


– in second hand, actually true black didn’t exist. I know it’s fucking choking. The black you see is still a deep color absorbing more or less light. It’s for that reason that some blacks don’t match when you wear its. Some are greenish or slightly blue, reddish or so… 

Recently Anish Kapoor, a contemporary artist bought all rights on VantaBlack which is the darkest material ever made, absorbing 99,96% of light. 


In conclusion you like colors, but very deep, yeaah ! 

My favorite colors is purple. Since my young age, purple fascinating me. And you, after reading this blog, which is your favorite color ? 

MUSIC Wednesday #1: Enter the Ritual 

Hi Shadows,

Welcome to this new section of the blog, each tuesday i will try to give you a playlist of things i’m listening. Old and new stuff, discover each wednesday 10 songs . For this first one i choose some ritual inspired dark music i listen a lot when i work. 

Sunglasses time: nice eyeswear for sunny days 

Hi Shadows, 
I don’t know how the weather is near you, but here sun is finally back. I must admit i love spring and summer, you can go outside almost everyday, in the nature. But as all goth, what wearing is still a big deal. For the moment it’s not so hot, and i focus on my eyes. Finding nice sunglasses is a goal. Here some hints: 


1) Moon sunglasses / Dollskills 2) Fang wing sunglasses / Karmaloop 3) cobweb shades / Spitfire Interiors 4)Goth sunglasses / World Wide Witch 5) Framed sunglasses/ Aranwen 6)Bat framed sunglasses/ Emerald Angel 7) Moon stone sunglasses/ A Rock On A Lens 8) la e frame sunglasses/ Flashback and freedom 9) metal lace sunglasses / ZeroUv 

Birthday super day: shamanic drums and singing bowl  

Hi shadows, 

After the party with family today was birthday day. I hate big parties, full of people with whom you don’t have the time to talk. I prefer being with people i love and talk, share, laugh and feel good together. 

We were lucky, the weather was perfect. With my man, his son and my best friend we’ve gone in woods for doing some magick. We’re both interested by old pagan pratices, sprirituality and roots. We share a lot of things on this topics. 

My man and I are shamanic drum player. Shamanic drums are the horse of the shaman, which does the link between worlds. It’s a fantastic way to develop your sensibility and being open to worlds. It’s also a great thing for relaxing and meditate. My best friend is using tibetan singing bowl in the same way. It was the very first time we played together and it was really enchanting with the sun on our skin, the wind blowing around us, the overlook on the valley bellow us, the birds freshly out for spring. 

Tambours shamaniques


I’ve painted my drum. A lot of shamans, especially in Samis ( Lapland) tribes are painting their drums with their own symbols. I do mine having this in spirit. 


After playing we walk through the woods for showing a special rock to my best friend. Legends says that around Berchta is guiding innocent souls to the Valhalla. It measures 9 m. 


We finished the day with a restaurant. It was really an awesome birthday. 

Cheers 

Outfit of the day: Birthday with family 

Hi Shadows, 

Today i’m turning 43. I’m into goth since 25 years ! So much things happened and time flies so fast. This evening we did the family party and tomorrow it will be just with my man, his son and my best friend. We will play shamanic drums in the woods on the top of a nice hill above the valley. Promise, i will post about shamanic drums practice and why i’m practicing. 

Well, back to this evening. 

Simple and comfy. I wore my witchy winkelpickers from Goth Pikes. 

Laced legging from Poizen Industries 

Here a close up, i love the fishnet through which you can see my tattoos. I have another one laced up on leg sides. 



Velvet and cotton embroidered top by Holy Clothing my favorite brand 

Bat necklace by Restyle and altered by me, other necklaces from Ebay, sleeveless cardigan from Bershka. 


Wolf head hair clip from Bloody Frills 

I never use white foundation, my skin is pale by nature and frankly i never really understand why so white face ? I will have the feeling to be a sad clown. It’s one of the stereotypes i don’t need. When i was a baby bat i don’t remember people with white face make up. 

What do you think, am i wrong ? 

Cheers ! 

Tattoo appointment report

Hi little ghosts, 

last week i had a tattoo appointment with my favorite tattoo artist, Leanka from Lucky Electric. She did an amazing work. Most of my tattos are from her hand. I trust her completely. I think the relationship between you and your tattoo artist is VERY important. Even for one little tat’ 

i will do a more complete post about tattoos, being tattooed and how to do or not do when you want a tattoo. 

My new tattoo was for my leg, a large snake , from foot to thigh between my other tats. When it’s a place like legs or arm you need to think how you dress for being confortable during the work and after especially if have something else to do before being back home. 

I choose one of my comfy dress from Holyclothing. I wore over knee socks, no battle with shitty thights and one of my comfy pikes

Ready for my rendezvous ! I’m still a little bit nervous before a tattoo because you never know which pain you will have. Especially with a big one which begins on foot and continue alongside your leg. 


i took a photo during the appointment but i deleted it last evening while i cleaned my photo feed. Well it’s not very important actually. 

Here is the snake. I think it took 3 or 4 hours. Don’t remember because we still talk and laugh a lot. Time flew fast. My tattoos are not “goth” , i like old school coloured tattoos and some tattoo artists close to lowbrow or outsider art style. I must confess that i’m not into usual goth art with  etheral girls/ bats / wolves/ roses/ cemeteries kitsch combo. I will talk about that in another post too ! 


the photo was taken the evening after my appointment. I will shoot it better when it’s healed. Next step will probably be the snake on my left leg, same size, same place but not same snake: i want the sand snake from Beetlejuice. He is a little bit more simple with his stripes, with less colors. The third and last steps will be finishing colors and correct lines on both. 

Have you tattoos ? Do you want tattoos ? 

Cheers ! 

Vampires movies goth should watch : Part 2 

Hi shadows, 

Last week i’ve posted a list of vampires movies, i think goth should watch. of course it’s not a condition for being goth to my eyes, it’s just a title which sounds nice to my ears. However, here the second part of the list and even non goth could watch its 😉 Hope you perhaps discover movies you don’t know in the list. 

1) Interview with the Vampire, Neil Jordan, 1994 


I remember very well when i go to cinema to watch it with friends. I was a baby bat and my friends was involved in roleplaying La Camarilla about vampires. We were very excited and all of us knew the Anne Rice’s book series. It’s one of the few movies in which i can stand Tom Cruise. He is a very good Lestat. Brad pitt is less good as Louis but honorable. If you like historic  costumes movies, sexy vampire relationship and Anne Rice’s book, it’s for you. 

2) Morse, Thomas Alfredson, 2008 


Morse is a vampire movie based on kids but not for kids like The Little Vampire. This swedish movie based on a book depict the special relationship between two kids. It’s a beautiful movie which explore through vampire topic, kid’s torments and how some build a deep connection. 

There was a remake in 2010, but i don’t watch it till now. 

3) Twixt, FF Coppola, 2012 


twist is a part of those very personnal movies Coppola realised. It’s a mix of several inspirztions and topics. It’s also a tribute to edgar Allan Poe universe. For me it’s a real gothic movie and Elle Fanning is brilliant. I just czn tell you : WATCH IT ! 

4) Thirst, Park Chan Wook, 2009 


For once a corean movie. The story is a strange mix between a french realist book, Therese Raquin, and a classic vampire movie. The principal character is a priest, and just for that i wanted watch it, long story, who is infected by a vaccine test. The aesthetic is interesting and the film is more a thriller than a horror movie. 

5) Vampyr, Carl Theodor Dreyer, 1932 


this movie is a beautiful expressionist one. For once it was not after Dracula but after Sheridan Le Fanu Carmilla book. I must admit that i love 20s / 30s movies aesthetic so i enjoyed almost all movies from this era !

6) The Last Man on Earth, Ubaldo Ragona, 1964  


this adapatation of one of my favorite book I Am Legend written by Richard Mattheson is not perfect but much better that the one with Will Smith few years ago. And if your not conviced, watch it for Vincent Price, still perfect. His character live alone and must face night attacks. 

7) Dracula, Tod Browning, 1931 


I don’t know one goth who don’t know who is Bela Lugosi, the best known Dracula actor of the past century. I must confess if i like the movie it’s not my favorite even it’s a classical one. From Browning i prefer so much Freaks. However, you need to watch it, just for your culture and because it has installed long time vampire stereotypical picture. 

8)Vampire’s kiss, Robert Bierman, 1989


I like this movie, which is more a comedy, because it uses a different point of view on what could be to become a Vampire. It was one of the first movies which explore vampire psychology. Nicolas Cage did a great job. 

9) Only Lovers Left Alive, Jim Jarmush, 2013


this film take another point of view on vampires : the disillusioned ones. The movie is mot the best ever on vampires but it’s worth for the actors, Swinton and Hiddleston, and for the still classy Jarmush’s photography.  And Hiddleston, oh i guess i say that before ;)) 

10) The Fearless Vampire Killers, Roman Polanski, 1967 


Another classics but in comedy. This movie is a reinterpretation of Van Helsing, the vampire hunter of Dracula, story.  It’s funny and light. Perfect for halloween with friends for example. 

Next week i will publish the last chapter of my list. Feel free to add in comments movies you like and which are not here nor im the part one.